leftcoast's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- - Today I was watching Jim Carry's Canada skit on youtube with Zach. That video reminds me so much of Taylor. They look so alike there, especially since Jim Carry looks so young. So I definitely have had Taylor on my mind all day. I haven't seen much of anyone this summer. To be honest I haven't really minded. The only person that I find myself constantly caring about is Spencer, surprise, surprise. It's been really hard for me to let him and our friendship go. I can't move on. I feel that when I talk negatively about him it's some sort of defence mechanism. Like I'm trying to cover up how much he has hurt me.. and though he has I still care. Maybe time will heal? I just always imagined so much more for Spencer and I. He was someone I really wanted to have in my life for a long time. Things are going better with Josh. Right now I feel content with where we stand. When I'm with him I feel wanted and we have fun. When we aren't together I don't worry about him and I'm feeling really good about that. I'm glad things have sorted themselves out for the most part. I really appreciate that he is somebody that will take the time and effort to see things through and make sure everything has it's place. The last thing I needed was a shitty breakup and to end a relationship with yet another person I have really enjoyed having in my life. I wish things could have been the same with some of my other relationships. 12:55 a.m. - 2010-07-02 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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